I do not understand, why can a person do things to hurt a person.
There is a time where i trusted this person alot, by telling him everything, the bad and the good. I also feel I can do anything for him because he is a special friend to me. I have accompanied him in his painful and happy times. I do not even thought of asking any repay from him.
But.... but the only thing i asked is Trust. The only thing i asked as a friend is trust. Is already hard enough for me to trust a person. I have been betrayed many many times, making me blocking so many people.
I do not blame him for anything already. Is just that I have blamed others too much for my own mistake to trust others so easily. i should open my eye in believing others.
But... I do not know why have feel disgusted in even seeing him even abit. I do not even want to talk or chat with him. Because everytime I see him, it just remind me how he do not trust me which I hate the most when it comes to friendship.
Even when I am not busy, I choose not to meet him when he wants to meet me. Even when I feel bad, I still do not choose to meet him.
